Life, Training

Check myself before I wreck myself

First things first, if ANYONE even mutters the “I told you so” phrase they will be met with a sharp “get fucked” and be on a hug ban for at least 24hrs (that includes you Jamie).


I might have mentioned that I like running and training, A LOT.

I also have a full-time job, have just moved flat, am planning my Fiji wedding (in 5 weeks!) and have just started an exciting new business venture with Jamie. Oh and I sometimes like to sleep and have a social life too.

All of these things are AMAZING, however there is a slight problem. Sometimes, I get over excited, try to cram everything in and forget that I’m not an exception to the 24 hours in a day rule (if only I had Bernard’s watch).

I’ve got history

This isn’t really a new thing. Even when I was studying musical theatre, I would be that guy in the dance studio rehearsing until ridiculous o’clock whilst trying to hold down two jobs. It’s tough to find a balance, telling yourself to do less of what you find fun isn’t easy. But I know it’s not sustainable. Annoyingly, it turns out I am not actually super human.

I tend to run in a cycle of:

  1. Get excited
  2. Do lots
  3. Do too much
  4. Burnout
  5. Rest then repeat

Wake up call

Last weekend was spent in the Cairngorms with Team Awesome. We went white water sledging, took the funicular railway up Cairn Gorm, but most importantly, we chilled. I don’t think I’ve relaxed that much in ages. And it was a total wake up call. I need to check myself before I wreck myself.

I want to get to the stage where my cycle is:

  1. Get excited
  2. Do lots
  3. Keep on doing lots, be awesome, and not have mega burnouts on my living room floor which include crying about my shins and multiple other life things.

The serious bit

I know it’s all well and good having a bit of a laugh at my epic burnouts, but in reality it’s not healthy. I try to eat and train right to look after my body but I need to remember my mental health is just as important (if not more).

It can be so easy to compare myself to others who seem to juggle it all, and if I’m honest, it’s been quite hard admitting that I can’t do it all. There we go. I said it, I can’t do it all.

I need to remember that’s okay.

Because I reckon most of us are trying to play our own juggling act? I just need to balance mine out a bit better!

But how?

This is the question I don’t really want to face, as I know deep down the answer will probably include doing less training. Thankfully this is all pretty well timed, I’m on the taper for Dirty Weekend, and Fiji comes 3 weeks after that. So I can put my head in the sand (literally) for a wee while.

What would be helpful is if anyone has any advice on how to live life to the full whilst not turning into a crazy burnout bitch.

Or… I could just become a millionaire and quit my job. Either or.

Currently: In my jammies listening to Ed Sheeran
Training today: Rest day after 11miler in the Pentlands with Anna
Adventure so far this week: Trying to park in the garage at work and scratching the car…