Why I want it all, but not right now

I want to do it all!

From exploring the world in my trail shoes, to creating my own home in the countryside and having a fulfilling career.

And obviously not forgetting spreading my love for adventure!

Happiest on woodland trails

But for once, I don’t want to do it all right now.

2017 was the year of yes for me and it was really amazing. But it’s taught me a lesson, sometimes you can have too much of a good thing.

Writing this blog post kind of goes against everything I stand for.

I constantly tell people, life’s too short, have fun, go for it, do that thing you’ve been dreaming of.

But, what I am starting to question is, is there a line where it all becomes too much?

Take last year for example. One month I had 3 races in 4 weekends, with two of them having overnight stays.

I LOVE races but I found myself constantly looking to the next one.

Instead of properly enjoying each race individually I found myself ticking them off the list and going, okay, what’s next?

Plus my anxiety reared it’s ugly head at the last race and I had quite a difficult day.

What I am now questioning is, would I have actually had more fun just focusing on 1 or 2 of the races?

Possibly…and my bank balance would definitely have been a bit healthier.

Because let’s be realistic, unless you’re pretty well off or maxing out credit cards, juggling adventures expenses and life expenses can be tough.

And I reckon we are all a bit guilty of doing the same with life as I did with my races.

Constantly ticking things off the list and looking to what’s next. But do we truly appreciate what we are doing in each moment?

Society dictates that we achieve certain things in a certain amount of time.

Such as getting married, buying a house, having kids and don’t forget to explore the world and have a successful career.

All whilst sharing it on social media of course. But what’s the point if we’re not enjoying the individual thing?

Always grateful for stunning mountain top views

Don’t get me wrong. I still LOVE adventuring and I have had incredible experiences so far in my life.

But, as with everything I think it’s time to strike a bit of balance. Everybody’s journey is different, and that’s what makes life beautiful.

And, I think a lot of the pressure actually comes from ourselves.

I know I’m guilty of looking on social media, seeing others achievements and comparing myself.

No wonder mental health issues are on the rise and many of those around me, including myself,  have experienced anxiety recently.

So I think it’s time we were all a bit kinder to ourselves.

Life IS short, but we also need time to recharge the batteries, save some pennies and appreciate the simple things around us.

And accepting where you are at in you life is actually pretty amazing.

My favourite guys

So for me what does mean? Well, I’m signing up for less races, giving myself more weekends at home and keeping a close eye on where I am placing my energy.

My advice? Go for it, achieve your dreams. But maybe take a day or two off in-between!

Currently: Loving this sunny weather
Training today: Gentle yoga
Adventure this week: Running the EMF relay this Sunday for Maggie’s.

(Ps. The ultra I signed up for in October totally doesn’t count as it’s the only race I have between July and October!)

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